Many of you already know that i am down with cold and fever. Since I had to use dictionary to find the word "fever" I suppose the last time I dealt with it was long-loooong ago. So much long ago so I had to address my friends for an advice on how to get back to life quickly :) Thanks to the great support and tips I have had 3 liters of magic hot cranberry-lemon-honey drink, have wrapped myself in a nice warm duvet, have been
sweating resting "the nasty thing" out and am able to sort the experience of last two month
of silence in my head and get back to blogging :)
There are no movies, books, music, food or any other entertaining things. It is all about sincere and meaningful interaction with people dear to my heart,
self-listening, self-reflection, raising questions and finding answers that give an absolutely different feeling to my experience of being ill which is indeed pleasant so is worth sharing :)
To begin with I'd like to ask - what does illness usually mean to us? An undesired constraint on the way of life? A signal to weak health? A proof to the fact that something is wrong with us or against natural order? Can illness be only a negative event stating mistakes of our life or something more than that or even something else? I'd like to share few daring thoughts on this question.
As mentioned earlier I usually do not get sick, at least fever is never in the list of symptoms. You'd describe me as a strong girl but frankly speaking there was too much of strength factor in my life. I started developing deep relationships with feminine side of me few months ago. I have been learning the science of strength in gentleness and love and the science of visible weakness. It may sound crazy but maybe my sickness is meant to be a tornado that aims to destroy whatever is left of male strength: when you fall sick you can't be strong even if you really want? Maybe it is also meant to bring the winds of selfless care and attention to let gardens of femininity inside me bloom as never before? I cannot say for sure but after all these years i eventually allow myself to not worry about but enjoy the experience of being sick and being taken care of... i have felt my heart melting and my mind relaxing lately. I hope it to be a sign of a a
wakening "Sleeping Beauty" in me ^^ :D
To me the sickness has also become the opportunity to learn more about myself and my scopes for improvement. Ayurveda that has been overwhelming me since some time states that each organ can be connected to a scope of personality features and that by fixing the latter part of this connection we can influence our health state. Following this amazing method I have discovered few attributes of my character that my body identified as "in need of attention". These attributes are: humility, activeness, concentration of attention and self-awareness. I bet decision to create this post was meant to be right: I am working on improvement of all of them right here, right now :D
Can you recollect at least one event in your life when a perfect plan was interrupted by an unforeseen circumstance? It may not have been a pleasant experience. But would you rather agree that it was needed and thus it was right? It's too early to make any conclusions but maybe my sudden sickness is a signal that it is not the right time/way for something to happen and that my imperfect plan needs corrections?
The last but not least point to mention is that being sick is what actually makes me get back to my
regime of the day. I had to hold it on due to religious fast and traveling. I have dreamed of making it basis of my day-to-day life but
as it usually happens waited for the right day :) Starting following it again now when I am sick feels so natural to my organism. It does not protest against but welcomes this healthy habit ;)
I suppose, no more words but one - thank you! ^^
